Monday, February 23, 2009

It's all fine, everything is fine......

I'm feeling slightly better physically but mentally I really feel like just sleeping. I wake and it's day then wake and it's night. Cats come and go. I change the jam's and back to bed. Sometimes I eat, and then sometimes I don't. The phone rings with well wishers, I talk but really just want to sleep.

Diane is occasionally on the phone telling me things about yarn, I hope that I make sense, but pretty sure I don't. Mike brings cups of tea, which sometimes I drink and sometimes I don't.

Going through Mom's things yesterday was hard, not harder than i thought it was going to be, but hard enough, that when I came home I went back to bed.

I spun yarn today of an angora nature. My friends left a bag of angora with Mom so I began to spin it today. I made a royal mess of the couch and all the cats wanted to taste the fiber, and then Halda the housekeeper came and I stopped making large messes and went to sit outside looking at the Orchard that was to be taken to Mom but Mike got sick, and then it was too late.

I will take pictures of where Mom's bench will be when I'm feeling well enough to get up there to pick out a spot.

I'm going back to bed now, it has clean sheets and I have clean body and jams on. Yarn might be made tomorrow, we'll just take it moment by moment....


Laura said...

It seems to me that, for now, you're doing what you need to do and are doing as well or better than can be expected.

One day at a time. And please, try to minimize the "what if's?". You were there for Mom. You loved her; she loved you. That's all we really have in the end.



Anonymous said...

My heart goes out to you Trish...I remember your mom very well, such a delightful woman. I just lost my dad 3 weeks ago - so I do know how it can be. It's a shock rather than a surprise...the sleeping is will get better, but not just yet.

Elisabeth in LA