I'm feeling slightly better physically but mentally I really feel like just sleeping. I wake and it's day then wake and it's night. Cats come and go. I change the jam's and back to bed. Sometimes I eat, and then sometimes I don't. The phone rings with well wishers, I talk but really just want to sleep.
Diane is occasionally on the phone telling me things about yarn, I hope that I make sense, but pretty sure I don't. Mike brings cups of tea, which sometimes I drink and sometimes I don't.
Going through Mom's things yesterday was hard, not harder than i thought it was going to be, but hard enough, that when I came home I went back to bed.
I spun yarn today of an angora nature. My friends left a bag of angora with Mom so I began to spin it today. I made a royal mess of the couch and all the cats wanted to taste the fiber, and then Halda the housekeeper came and I stopped making large messes and went to sit outside looking at the Orchard that was to be taken to Mom but Mike got sick, and then it was too late.
I will take pictures of where Mom's bench will be when I'm feeling well enough to get up there to pick out a spot.
I'm going back to bed now, it has clean sheets and I have clean body and jams on. Yarn might be made tomorrow, we'll just take it moment by moment....
2 comments:
It seems to me that, for now, you're doing what you need to do and are doing as well or better than can be expected.
One day at a time. And please, try to minimize the "what if's?". You were there for Mom. You loved her; she loved you. That's all we really have in the end.
Love,
Laura
My heart goes out to you Trish...I remember your mom very well, such a delightful woman. I just lost my dad 3 weeks ago - so I do know how it can be. It's a shock rather than a surprise...the sleeping is fine...it will get better, but not just yet.
Elisabeth in LA
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